really fat hand

for the first time since saturday i pulled my bandages away from my hand to have a little look-see. yikes! i can't believe this bear paw is actually attached to MY body and i can't even imagine what my forearm and wrist must look like.

the insurance appraiser looked at my car today so hopefully i'll have a 'dollar value' tomorrow and i can begin preliminary shopping for a new/used volvo. i had entertained the thought of buying an audi or a pontiac (i know, this seems weird to people who have not known me a long time) but i decided that since my volvo did what a volvo is supposed to do in an accident, i should remain loyal to the brand.

i am anxious to get back to the doctor on monday for a full assessment and a surgery date. i'm still working hard on getting my brain and my emotions ready for surgery.

I am in mourning

My Volvo was tragically murdered on Saturday.

Hooray!

It looks like we will officially now have some experience in the secondary! Here's the link to a great story from the Winston-Salem Journal.

The cloud blot test

I see an angry little terrier running full speed and yapping like mad at some unknown "enemy".

Freud: Ah, your sexual repression is a source of anger and joo vant to lash out.

Jung: Oh Yah, you are lacking harmony in your life. You must seek balance.

Piaget: Oui madam, you seem to be stuck in a primal cognitive state.

Dr Phil: I don't know. Does Dr Phil use cloud blot tests? Do cloud blot tests increase ratings?

nature and suburban juxtaposition

I consider myself an outdoorsy kind of gal. I like to exercise (hike, paddle or walk), work (don't get to do this) and finally, dine, al fresco. To me there is something very freeing about this. Yet despite all my outdoorsisness, I have a very indoors nature as well. I can't pee in the woods. I can't sleep in the woods. I can't have a proper shower in the woods. I don't like flying, squirming, hissing, buzzing, swimming or generally unknown things around me. In my quirky book there are inside things and there are outside things and the twain should never meet.

To a certain extent the same goes (we're talking about MY book) for the country life and the suburban life. I get a little un-nerved and yet somewhat comforted when the boundaries cross.

Un-nerved:

- A co-worker's husband and son recently brought home a PYTHON. They called this evil incarnate thing a "pet". Said pet slithered out of it's cage and was loose in the house. This is the creepiest thing I can imagine and a clear signal that the outdoors does not need to be in.

- A friend had an electrician over to fix her attic fans. He found a dead BAT stuck on one of the fan blades. E-GADS! The idea of a bat in the house is almost as creepy as a snake.

- My friend CK's dogs recently killed a ground hog (she thinks) in two seconds flat. Granted, this was in the yard but still, it was inside the confines of their sanctuary.
I KNOW I could not have scooped that thing up for disposal. (I know this because one time a neighborhood cat left me a vole as a present on my patio. I got out the shovel. I tried to scoop it up but I was too creeped out. I transferred my creeped out-id-ness by digging a hole. Then I called my neighbor and had her shovel the eyeless thing into it's "grave".)

Comforting:

- After dinner last night I was sitting on the porch with my friends from the L family (they live in the high rent district of my neighborhood). A beautiful doe and her cute little fawn ambled into the yard. They scavenged around for awhile and then gracefully frolicked back into the woods.

- I was sitting out on my deck earlier this evening and watched two cute and very amorous bunny rabbits. Now I suppose I'll get to see several more little bunny rabbits in the weeks to come.

random, tuxaia, willrulich, al azar, عشوائي

Thanks to google, I can say RANDOM in english, greek, german, spanish and arabic.

I went to see Narnia today. I can't decide if my favorite allegorical tale is Lord of The Rings or Narnia. CS Lewis or JRR Tolkien. I find it interesting that the two were friends of sorts.

Always the football fan, I watched Remembering the Titans on the Family Channel. Did you know that Denzel he's so hot Washington was married in Rootin Tootin Newton at this church?

I am so thankful we have freedom of expression in this country! Seriously I am, but I wonder if the people who put this bumper sticker on their cars think this same freedom exists in other cultures. Yeah right, take another bong hit and make sure you put an Obama sticker on your front bumper.

My downstairs air conditioning unit is getting ready to bite the dust. I hope that my newly purchased home warranty covers this.

I have never seen or heard of a hummingbird moth until my butterfly bush matured. The little buggers are kind of creepy actually.

Apps 3 - Heels 2

In my mind there is no doubt that the Winston-Salem Journal covers Mountaineer sports better than any other major newspaper in the state. I remain thankful for their dedication but I still get a little hot under the collar when I read certain articles. Case in point: In today's sports page there is this article 2 Heels, 3 Apps picked in Day 2 of draft. Why do the Heels come first? Anyway you look at it the Apps should be first. 3 is better than 2, A comes before H or U or C and finally, M comes before T. No doubt the Journal staff writer was a product of UNC J School.
Whining aside, I'm most pleased for our kids and appreciative of the fine job Coach Pollard is doing!
Speaking of baseball; here's a plug for my friend Miss Baseball. Check out the website for the RJ Reynolds Demons (they are black and gold so you MUST love them) and support (ie click on the ads) their advertisers for a good cause.